3 hours to a new life!"I am writing to thank you for the time you invested in me over Skype the other day.After 12 years of covering for my traumas with external activity, sometimes successfully, You are the first person I have felt I could trust to talk to honestly and in depth about how it has affected me.
I still get into a dark place on the topic of women, but after 12 years and many many let-downs, our session yielded some interesting and immediate results.
First, an old co-worker who has always had a soft spot for me contacted me and told me that she loves me.
This would be great news if she wasn’t married, but for the first time in a long time I was receiving unrequited love instead of giving it.
Almost as soon as we hung up the Skype I went from a place of feeling no one would feel romantic love for me again, to actually turning it down because I was too busy having fun. It was a massive perspective shift.
I even had one of those “ Dammit Debi , you’re….. Good “ moments, when I caught myself sending her a ‘Calm down dear’ text.
I’ve got a holiday booked to go away with my stepdad, where I intend to talk with him, and explain how much his influence on myself, and my family has been important to me. He is very worried about my mental health, somewhat due to his inexperience of the topic, but his motivations are based in love, and I appreciate his support.
I have suddenly got a second wind in terms of my health, so far this week I have cycled 30 miles, compared with none for the past six months.. the improved weather has helped, but the inclination to be active has returned, and I’m soaking nuts nightly for the next day, as you suggested. Also my water intake has gone up dramatically.
Bits of my house are becoming clear, I have for the past 3 years been embarrassed by the state of disrepair and disorganisation the place has been in, which has affected my social activity, and led to some very dark days and depression. But when I returned from 'my trip' the house seemed like ‘less of a job’ if that makes sense, just easier..
My addiction has declined somewhat also, its just a good boredom filler, and I've even been less bored. My sleep pattern has also benefited.
I can’t put all of this on you, but it is odd how opening up to a good person who is only judging the best way to help can work wonders.
I feel calmer, more in control of my own thoughts and emotions, and less inclined to rant and rave about how unfair my story has been up to now.
you are awesome"
J Birmingham 2015